I had a major bout of depression about 18 months ago- felt that I was in a hole that I couldn't escape from, couldn't sleep, losing appetite, ruining my relationship with wife and kids. Finally went to the Doctor, broke down in tears when I was telling her because it was the first time that I had acknowledged the problem. She prescribed Citalopram and within weeks I was feeling better. I've been off medication for 6 months now and I'm in a great place. My whole life up until now had been marred with a background feeling of melancholy and fear of impending doom. That's gone now and I realise that the way I'm feeling now is normal. One of the other things that helped me was Limmy who has been vocal about his problems and how he has tackled them. You'll not beat this alone- reach out for help you'll not regret it.